Cassie wants to curl up into a little ball and cry,
to hear the world as silent
to feel the world as gone
to breathe out the long held breath
She wants the tears to turn into the problems and pain,
the heartache and doubt.
Cassie wants them to fall down her cheeks,
to land on her hands
her legs
her feet.
She wants the tears to dry
to fade and vanish
to leave.
Cassie sleeps long hours.
to try and make the hurting go away
to put it off for another time
She has so much trouble sleeping now
touchless hands shake her awake
and nightmares hiding in dreams
scream at her
Cassie is so tired of feeling nothing
and everything
She tires of having the whole world stare at her from a distance
she hurts
it hurts
Cassie is confused
full of
hate
anger
rage
agression
sadness
depression
lost times and memories
innocence that she never knew she had
has vanished, gone, forever
Cassie cannot sleep.
The hands awaken her.
They're pushing
Taunting
Causing fear and doubt.
Cassie wants to go
grow
She wants to turn away from what she knows,
wave casually over her shoulder
and BREATHE
that long held breath.
Cassie wants to curl up in a ball.
to reach a place of no place
no time
space is irrelevant
mass and being do not exhist
She wants to walk where the faceless walk
and discover the paths they took
Cassie wants to sleep.
A long sleep
With no hands
or voices
or places with faces
She wants to wake
in the faceless land
without hands voices faces
Cassie needs to rest
to leave the faces
the hands
voices

And breathe that long held breath.